B E B E R E

Woke up early this morning, decided to take a walk. I'm glad I did - the sun felt so good on me. I must've been out in it for a couple hours, at least. Good for clearing out the brain, for musing, ruminating.

The pain is pretty severe right now, feet to ankles to knees up to the lower back. Compensation and teeth-grinding leaves the neck and shoulders tensed up. I have to see my way out of this, somehow. I know I did it before - and I will get through it again. I just don't feel very strong or willing.

The relationship isn't much help, either. I feel chained to a shop mannequin or something, for all the help and support I get. Though everyone will say that you need others, there is a lot I can say for self reliance.