B E B E R E

Am feeling a bit flat. Haven't been getting much good sleep as, for the past week or so, have been contending with the return of nightmares I'd not had in a long time. Part of it's the current family problems, part of it is the birthday coming up.

I don't mind the getting older part. Heck, it's another year between me and an unhappy past. What really bothers me is the fact that these are supposed to be happy times (like the holidays, I guess), but, no matter how hard I work at putting a good face on, I can't seem to not feel down.